The end of 2013 thank god
As 2013 comes to a close I can’t help but reflect on the past year and look forward to the year to come I truly cannot wait for 2014 its so close I can taste it!
One of the saddest things that is hitting me so hard this evening is that my godson was born in December last year I held him as a newborn and one other time. Both were very painful for my arms and I’ve physically only gotten worse all I wanted To do was hold that little munchkin tonight give him a great big hug but I can’t risk more damage to my already messed up body I’m in so much pain and he’s just so precious. I don’t want either of us hurt from my misfortunate situation. So all I could do was look as they played and tickled him, fed him and “made him fly” threw him over daddy’s knee. It was wonderful so see him, but that all I’m watching. It’s okay. I got over it. It’s got my health and welbeing. But it’s still sad.
This whole year has been sad. From the moment I wrung in 2013 working my ass off at 711 to tonight, there have been scant highlights this year.
But here they are!
JCKS: my four best friends! These girls can always but a smile on my face and are truly the BEST, life ain’t worth living without them. I am so lucky to have such an amazing, supportive, thoughtful, caring, tolerant and loving group of friends. Thanks you guys. So much loves <3
My amazing mother of course. Who I couldn’t not have survived this year (or any year ) without! Mom your the greatest! You are the extension of body that makes everything happen in our home. Thank you
Chronic pain support group: this group has been very helpful in helping me see the long term effects of chronic illness and is a huge factor in building my health care plan. These ladies are older, wiser, and very sick and in pain, but they welcomes this you gin in with open “air” hugs and we all get to moan groan and grip together as well as help find local health professionals who will work with those like us. Also has given me a gimplse into what life will be like when I’m on my own. Now I know what I really need to prepare myself for.
Wedding bells: One of my besties got married and pregnant! (I was in the wedding party with was nice, but took me over a month to recover, and have been apart of the pregnancy dramas all through… She’s six months this week.
Went bankrupt: We filed bankrupatcy FINALLY (this was today:) this is a long time coming, all sorts of complicated stuff from when my father was alive.
And the biggest things this year was I found this community and pretty much discovered why I’ve been sick my whole life!
Tumblr diagnosis 2013! :) it’s a new one for sure but thank you so much rainbowrosepetals for nudging me in the right direction without you and help from so many others on here I would still be agonizing over “what the hell is happening to me!?” Now I have more answers and I’m just asking “how am I going to live like this, what can I do to make life more manageable?”
And last but certainly not least. The weight. All 60lbs of it Goodbye and ne’er shall I see you again.
Oh I forgot something I’m building a bond/relationship with someone who once was just my very sweet mechanic and now we are friends and have so much more going on (non romantic, more medical;) I’m glad mom made a friend in his mom too.
So the year wasn’t so bad. I mean I didn’t list all the bad things cause there are far too many but looking at the highlights is was a decent year.
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